Sunday, June 27, 2010

WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME?
I DON'T WANT TO UNDERGO SO MUCH THING AT THIS AGE!!!!

I actually have to go for a ROOT CANAL TREATMENT at such age for my decayed tooth. ALL BECAUSE OF MY FOOLISH THOUGHT AT FIRST AQND MY LAZINESS.
I CANT EVEN CONSIDER BY THINKNIG OF MY FUTURE NOW, I CANNOT EVEN GET THE ASSURANCE FROM MUM THAT SHE'LL PAY FOR THE FULL COST.

when i say i'll work after my a lvls to pay back her she immediately say DUN TALK ABOUT WORKING FIRST, STUDY HARD FIRST. but how the shit can i study hard when i cannot eat properly cus of this tooth, have to think of what if it continues to decay, what will happen to me, the excruciating pain i have to endure when my mum kept thinking it's nothing much and i have to bury myself in bed to get away from all the pain i can feel.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
should i get back to my notes, but i cant just think that everything is alright.
i cannot binge eat to distract myself now cus my tooth is the problem. tell me what can i do to focus in my studies when there is a tooth which cannot wait, in the top right side of my mouth making my feel uncomfortable.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Famine camp seems to have made me see some things differently now..

Two days of labour..
From major role as food distributor becoming doing everything they can find for us to do. Usher to food distributor to game preparers to door-blocker-cum-get-people-to-move-faster-helper to another whole day of 'security' work. =.= Nothing much la. not really hardship but just boring and lame in some way.

It was a bonus to see you at the camp at first. But later on it became a minus point. The very least you can expect from a friend when you have to do the sai kangs is to know they he/she is still around somewhere doing the same thing or being bored at least.

One after another.
Didn't talk much to the other from a while ago and now can't really talk much anymore, but i guess it's so from long ago anyway. he doesn't really got much things to talk to me.

Alright Im tired from thinking and typing. Shall get to sleep. Bye.