Friday, March 31, 2006

To the world i am one small someone...
To someone i am the world?...dun think so...zZz...

Why did he give me that set of words...which made me feel sad or maybe touched in the first sight when i read finish but afterwards...i feel so confused...Action Speaks Great Volume...why did it turn out like this...haiss...i dunnoe how to go on le...

If something happens to me...who would care...

it's the action that tells me everything eventually...

haiss...got so much to say but...his actions didnt encourage me to go on...

cya ppl...

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

dunnoe wad have gone over me man...zZz...i just dunnoe...TOTALLY CONFUSED...dun feel like thinking anymore...ppl just say im thinking too much...
cherish the things i have...HOW...have nth...how to cherish...zZz...argh...haiss...cya ppl..

Sunday, March 26, 2006

haiss...today was sure a lesson for me...i think i got sort of contented alrdy cuz i put in my effort...but at the same time...i started to get contented and slowly...my marching and so on get more and more lousier...
my attitude was really bad since ytd...or long time ago without me realising...haiss...nvm...ppl learn lessons in life...hahax...
ok...i very tired...hahax...cya ppl...

back again...suddenly thot of those children cartoon shows...then thos children and baby bears are like so carefree and relax...sometimes when u are under tremendous stress...wont u feel like joining those baby bears?..hahax...cya ppl...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

hahax..i felt sort of light-hearted after letting go of this matter...although not sure whether i would regret it...but i seems to be more happie le..at least there's someone down the cliff who would catch me...hahax..nothing much to post...cuz didnt think much le...hahax...today band was...haiss...i had my worst attitude during band today...really sorry to him...zZz...bb ppl...cya...
[only left with 29days..]

Thursday, March 23, 2006

hahax...i dun think there's anything wrong with me la...
just that when it's someone u care that are bothering u...u will of cuz think more and more right...lol..
maybe when i dun care so much...it's better...
volunteer...wad does this means...this means that ppl ownself go for the chance right?...not becuz of ppl who keep cheering on for him then will have to stumble to it...zZz...nvm...
i dunnoe wad's bothering me but im quite sure im not thinking too much...hahax...nvm...cya..

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

haiss...ask me not to think so much...but...dunnoe why i think so much...do they even understand me?...haiss...
Why should i even be happy?...I can only be sad when im not happy...haiss...
i just couldn't catch up with the school works...
pens and my highlighter starts to go missing...haiss...that highlighter...how can i even make myself happy?...apologizing after had done wrong is alright...but only at the end of the day?...haiss...i dunnoe la...dun even feel like talking le...so lethargic...think so much until my brain goes haywire...so tired...my whole body seems to be in pain and just...one big word to describe my whole system...TIRED...
Action Speaks Louder Than Words...simple to understand...difficult to fully understand it in life...haiss...
I am such a sucker...money sucker...argh...i owe Kenneth around $20...and i just have those debts that i couldnt pay finish...haiss...Still owe someone $30...haiss...why do i keep stuffing myself with food when i dun feel hungry?..

I shall just end with Why Should I Be Happy..i dun have any reason to be happy...zZz...
[Failure me...]

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

yeah!...indeed...it's not abt wad ppl think of u when comes to character...it's abt wad u think of urself...when u ask ppl to commend on u...it's only an artificial one which may be the same as wad u think...but eventually it's still urself?...zZz...mr tay said something like this today...it's when u praise urself that it's the real effort that u had put in...and from wad i remember...i havent praised myself truthfully these days..which is like...i had been slacking all this while...didnt put in effort in studying...haiss..zZz
is there something wrong with me nowadays...im not even sure abt it...zZz...

just now was in the toilet...then suddenly thought of thanking all the ppl which comes under this big word called the FRIENDS...which is like include...
The Hornists, YongZhi..
JiaLe, HuanGhee, Eugene, YuHui, KianSiang, JianKai & WeiLun[although it had become like this..but he let me understood something..]
XinFang, TingYan, YiJia, Jane, Lyria, Fiona...
I thought of making some cards which is like JigSaw shape..then wrap it nicely and give some of them...but the problem now is that i don't have that amount of time..feel like doing it during June Hols...I wrote it here is to let myself remember this...otherwise i would forget it..zZz...nvm...i'll think abt it when i got more time..

Is things the same?..Have it changed or did our thinkings changed?

Tml having full dress rehersal...let's just hope we wouldn't screw our show up and let's hope we can do our best show ever this time...and impress Mrs Ong and those teachers..let them know that we didn't waste our time during the hols..sometimes i just hope i didnt said that sentence to make ppl blah blah...lol...ok...going off...cya ppl...

And lastly...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA GE!!..

Sunday, March 19, 2006

zZz...A week of holidays is almost going to be over and as usual im still left with those piles of hols homeworks..but this time it isnt that bad as last time cuz i spent this hols quite fruitfully...all spent on band..hahax...hais...but with this...we are left with ONLY 4 FULL DAE PRACTICES..zZz..

stayed over here for a night...then although slept for around 10hrs...but im still very tired..zZz..the new band uniform is like...omg..lol..the pants dunnoe why so tight liddat..but still can get into it la...lol...maybe jian fei then can le...

haiss...as daes passed..i dunnoe wad im thinking anymore...this time...Time didnt help me much...it just made me more and more confused with wad im thinking abt...issit really have to be like this..or this is only becuz of my problems? i dunnoe wad's happening now...i just feel weird...issit really that im going to lose it all becuz i gained it all so quickly?

nvm...daes will just get more and more boring if this continues but i couldnt do much to salvage this situation le...

35 more days to that day...when will all of us realise abt this?..issit that 1 month, 31 days, 744hours, 44640 minutes, 2678400 seconds is that much?..dun forget we dun use all this 744hours on band only...even so...we can try to use all those excessive time which we used to play com games on band instead?..zZz...

yay...a section t..hahax..will this help in building the bond in us even even more?..hahax..surprisingly...these band practices made me quite happy...when i think of all those moments(happy ones only)...i just wont think abt those unhappy stuffs le...haiss...

2 simple wishes of mine in my wishlist...but it just seems like it wont come true...it seems so difficult for it to come true...conflicts will really help in bonding friends?...or just worsen it? through conflicts and worsening of friendships and stuffs...if it can be salvage..i think it will help in bonding even more...but if (i dunnoe wad) happened..maybe this could be lost in the darkness...

ok...gtg le...cya ppl!

Monday, March 13, 2006

Am i mad or crazy?...why do i get so pek cek suddenly..sometimes do u all feel that u are very angry with someone but when u see that person...u just cant be angry le...IM SO TROUBLED BY THAT...haisss...why must everything be initiated by ourselves?...although it says that we shld be initiative...but issit everytime that it's us?...we have to be initiative then others dun have to be liao la?...

nvm...i shall now talk abt something else...i dunnoe whether i shld even care abt all this...sometimes we shldnt INTERFERE in others' stuffs? different people=different points of understanding in something?...haiss...nvm...

cya ppl...todae although went out...still bored...not interesting...=.=


back...just to say...things that i shldnt "interfere" in...are things that i cant get rid off...i try to not mind anything...but can i even do that? i really dunnoe why cant i get angry...argh...

[Low-quality item going off]

Sunday, March 12, 2006

我突然想用华文...
我感觉到我的日子有如越来越辛苦似的...不在于肉体上的辛苦...是在于精神上的那种...我知道我就象一个牛糞寻找鲜花 似的...下等货寻找买主...我知道上等货都比较喜欢与其他的上等货在一起...就象当一滴水从花上落在我(牛糞)的脸上时...我会是那么的那么的高 兴...
haiss...but who would understand?...if u take this as a game...then dun count me in...im perfectly serious abt this...sometimes...u really feel like clarifying with ppl wad they are thinking...but...i just cant even though that person say anything oso can tell...
haiss...do i have to lose everything?...i've gained a lot a one time...now issit the time for me to lose everything? . will say no but can . even understand wad issit abt...im getting confused by all this...argh...
再见吧!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

hais...although i said i dun wan blog...but came to edit the wishlist so might as well post...zZz...haiss...todae band...i was like at first okok...after that feel a bit bu shu fu...then cant even concentrate...then juz think of other stuffs l0rhx...

Am I not suppose to even had done that?

haiss...i dunnoe...fan sia...haiss...yi yuan bao yuan is really that shuang mahz?...i dun quite think so...although im still half way through not doing that...haiss...nvm...

ya...daes are getting lesser le...just 46 more daes...9 more full practices...really hope can make the best out of it...dun even feel like going for the councillor thingie during march hols...it's getting in my way!!...argh...SIANX LA!...FAN LA!

I don't know why I'm getting more and more hot-tempered...how...

Can anything be forever? haiss...i only wish for some simple things to be forever...i dun wish to be very very wealthy...i dun wish to be a genius...i just wanna wish for some simple things...but how do i accomplish it?...im afraid...im afraid the higher hope i have in them...i would feel much much more painful when i fell...will they even disappoint me?

Am i suppose to do that?

haiss..this post is so...hais...nvm...bb ppl...juz hope he and them would read this...

[ZhengWei is losing hope in himself]
[How?...dun ask him to not lose hope...cuz how do words even works?]
[Disconnecting...]
[He's currently offline]

Sunday, March 05, 2006

hmm...todae went to do the CIP thing...hahax...the first door i ding-dong h0r...then that house alrdy gave lots of stuffs le...then i started my dae well cuz before that i had breakfast with hornists and jiale they all...then after the newspaper collecting finishes..i went back school to wait for those hornist cuz we gonna have lunch together...then yongzhi, kenneth and jing yi waiting for those buses to go their there...then fang yee and i waited in school...after that called guan ri to come school outside first then at the same time kenneth and jing yi come back le...then all of us waited outside the school...then that kenneth helped my buy softees then i ate until it dirtied my shirt...zZz...then finally...yongzhi do finish his newspaper collection...then we went for our lunch...then we were deciding wad to eat...*then they say sui bian*...then waited outside kfc then got seats then we go in then ate kfc...after that walk around in lot 1...then felt boring...then we were again deciding whether to watch movie or go other place walk walk..*then they say sui bian*...then we go causeway point l0rhx...on the way thr...we were thinking whether to go bishan for the campus thing or causeway...*then they say sui bian*...then we flip coin then we say the head then go bishan, the tail then go causeway...then flip flip flip..everytime is head...then finally we decided to go causeway instead...then at causeway point we walk walk...after that we were outside that sumphonic music school i think...then fang yee tell me abt the plaza singapura de yamaha thing...then i say next time go l0rhx...then after that suddenly feel like going then ask them...then jing yi called her mother and she can go...then we go l0rhx...went plaza singapura...then went to the yamaha shop then saw that french horn which is same as our school de then is like so nice...$3860...hais...lol...then cant find any scores inside...then we were on our way downstairs cuz guan ri nidda go home...then after that...we were again deciding whether to walk walk or go home...then guan ri go to mrt thr first...*then they say sui bian*...so we decided to flip coin again...then yongzhi took out that 20cents of his again...and the head is stay...the tail is go home...again...everytime we flip is head...LOL...then we stay...then after that we kept trying out with the coin then is like everytime is head...LOL...then someone said...we are wasting time flipping the coin...LOL...so we decided to go walk walk l0rhx...walk walk walk..then we decided to have dinner...then went kopitiam...again...we look and look for seats...then waited until got seats then we sit down...then we go buy food l0rhx...then after that the noodle is like so spicy...i mean not so la...but i cant take much of it...then gave up after eating less than half...LOL...then drink the soup and we finally decided to go home...hahax...then finally go home...on the way back...so funnie sia...had l0ts of fun todae...hahax...must thank fang yee and jing yi for not going home and continue walking with us...hahax...and todae..the 3 meals were all taken with the hornists...hahax...ok...cya ppl...i nidda go do hmwks le..

Thursday, March 02, 2006

VIP...NEVER...

there's emails saying...there would be ppl thinking of u before they sleep or there would be ppl who would die for u in this world and blah blah blah...at the same time...there's emails saying...tell ur friends how u feel abt them before they suddenly met up with accidents...why issit that if there's ppl who would do all those things for u but didnt tell u...this meant that that person/people is not ur current friends right...hahax.. i didnt meant it on myself...
and one thing i realise is that whenever i post or wad...ppl will say...dun sad...relac...and blah blah...lols...didnt pin-point at anyone...
there's things that i really dun understand sometimes...but no one would answer to me...does that means that im not suppose to understand it cuz we cant understand everything in the world? zZz..i dunnoe...
How old am I? I'm 14 this year.
14...a young age huh... What should a 14 years-old boy do now?...study?...play?...dating?... really seem lost in this era...so many routes for us to choose...haiszzz...If friends is that important to us now...then from my previous post...does it means that friends are very very important to me?...i really feel like not thinking of all these...zZz...ok...cya ppl!