Wednesday, May 31, 2006

HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSS...boredom kills...i have so much homeworks yet all my homeworks doing mood are gone in this few days time...arghh...

im someone who dun like doing things to others but rather let others do things to me...i dun like taking initiative but i noe i hafta do it to make everyone start doing something or blah blah...

today is definitely not my day...first...im late for the maths olympiads...then forgot to do something...then went home is one mistake i made(later then elaborate)...then when at the lift there...wanted to press door open for someone but pressed close instead and hit that person...then when reach home drank some water and choke on it...haiss...now im sitting in front of the comp feeling so bored yet no one replies my messages...
coming home is one mistake cuz i dun feel like going out le but i want ppl to ask me out cuz im feeling super bored...haiss...

moods definitely disrupt ur judgement on ncie and not nice musics...i was listening to the same playlist few days ago when im feeling so happie and it sounded so nice..while now i felt that all those musics are making me feel soo vexed...haiss...

[alone can be an enjoyment but at the same time very painful...]

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

ok...once again...long time no post...LOL!...hahax...happiness may be short but it's indeed the best...sometimes u dunnoe why u are happie but u are just happie...just like sadness...sometimes u dun feel happiness that's why u are sad...it's like this...sometimes u noe why u are happie and hence u are happie and of cuz...u must remember these happy moments which are like so nice?...hahax...nice musics is indeed suitable and perfect for a nice holiday starting...

hmm...yesterday went to watch Over The Hedge..indeed quite funny and very exaggerated...hahax...think of those exggerated but very funny parts then feel like laughing...although it may be lame to some ppl...but it's definitely perfect for a good laugh...anywayz...when's pirates of the carribbean coming out?...i dunch noe sia...=.=...but im definitely going to watch that...and also X Man...hahax...

Oh ya!...must remember something...

On 27th May 2006, Yeo Zheng Wei could finally tongue out a double tongue thanks to the simple demonstration by Lee Huan Ghee. Although the double tongue by Mr Yeo isn't that good, but it's definitely one good start for his double tonguing career in future.

hahax...the last phrase above is crapx though...but other than the phrase, "double tonguing career", others are true...i must practise hard sia...it's so difficult for a starter like me...cant believe after playing horn for 5 yrs and im still so lousy...cuz i dun have the talent...but i will work hard de...hahax...

[if only next yr i can still be in the same class...] cuz this class although not that good...but i love being in this class...like the care and share is one nice experience playing instruments together with friends from the same class...and oso see how the others in the class helped to collect donations and sell muffins...this is how a class works together and produce...i believe we can achieve much much more...that's why i like being in this class...

although unhappie things and moments are present in the class and band...but despite that...there's oso happie things and moments present...that's why...i may say i hate this class or section for one moment...but i believe that's only a word of anger and impulsive...cuz it cant be perfect but my definition of a perfect class and section can be this...hahax...

im too impulsive and insensitive alrdy...moving quickly but i cant see wad's going on properly...that's why i rather work slowly...why are the others going so fast and while catching them...mistakes are all done by me...but things that are like this cant be nobody's fault...cuz it's my fault...hahax...but it can be resolve easily...as long as u did do it intentionally/purposely/with a motive...hahax...although sometimes...What one didn't want to mean had already been meant. but why be tied down by stuffs... go on bahz...hahax...

okok...i shall end my post liao...holidays are indeed light and soothing with those nice musics and those no worries mindset...hahax...cya guyz!

Monday, May 29, 2006

Friday, May 26, 2006

hahax...long time no post...cuz recently a bit busy with stuffs...but tml will be the last day le...then holidays...hahax...actually...i felt much better le bahz...now...i saw someone who appreciates me as a friend...at least much more than some other ppl...

hmm...nice songs...nice ppl to chat with...life can be quite enjoyable and fun..hahax...cya ppl...

tml having care and share anywayz...hahax...

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

there's ups and downs in life...when can i get out of this growing stage?...friends cant be forever from wad said by one of my friend...i cant rely on friends anymore...they are just there to help u a little and little...i rather depend a bit more on someone who is not really my friend but closer than on friends who is close yet block off by this frosted wall...

haiss...i've helped someone sort of similar as me...but who would help me...i'll just wait...hahax...nvm bahz...maybe it's better off like this...cya ppl...

Monday, May 15, 2006

OK...DEAD LE...I LOST MY VOICE RIGHT BEFORE TML'S CHEERING COMP!!!...HOW?!!!...haisss...really start to crave to taste how wines taste like...maybe someone can fulfil my wish?...hahax...i nidda go do the derrick's hands le...cya ppl...

Saturday, May 13, 2006

ok...today went out alone...went to causeway...then jurong point then westmall then come home...then go buy bbq stuffs then come home again...and here i am posting...

hmm...the feeling of going out alone...quite nice...maybe i shall do that more oftenly...

yes...im noisy...very fan...but u think i like it?...sometimes it seems like u've done something but to appease me u say it's joking...I DUN WANT THAT...if i cross the limit...SHOUT AT ME...SCOLD ME...CAN EVEN BEAT ME UP!...it's too perfect alrdy...no scolding...it feels so superficial...im still afraid to show wad i really am cuz all this doesnt let me go beyond that line...so i shall just stay here then...this is my position alrdy bahz...it's alright...

hais...i thought i would be so the happie after exam...but it seems bored and tiring for me to walk alone in those shopping mall...the feeling of being alone is nice...but it's because it's better than going out with those ppl that i dun wan to go out with...but i have nothing to say cuz i have no right to choose...im one big trash...

sometimes i just feel like shouting out loud...I SUCKS...but...until now i havent done that...zZz...cya ppl...

woooo...exams over!...after so long being bothered by the no-game, no-fun days...im so the looking forward to those fun im getting soon...although im quite sure that im sort of going to get very low marks for my exams...but i tried to study as much as i could during those days le...but didnt succeed...zZz...im sooooo the gonna have fiancial problem soon...lol...must really take good care of my wallet...otherwise the next moment it will be empty...and this week's is really empty le...T_T...hahax...and sunday is mothers' day!..how am i gonna get a cake when my wallet is empty?!...i shall go think of some way le...cya ppl..hahax...cheering comp...care and share...post exam activities...

Thursday, May 11, 2006

i tried tolerating...at least i tried...

ok...i think im someone who cannot concentrate on things at once...i would always want to give up one thing for another...just like that time IPW and all those things...i feel like giving up IPW cuz i noe i wont be happy and wont get a sastified result...but i have no choice but to continue...tried so hard and worn me out totally...i felt so hopeless that time...have no mood for anything...just kept on eating and eating...
now...examinations...i felt that i havent done my best for those...i ate and ate again...tml is the last paper...i was actually looking so much forward to those post exam activities and stuffs like band resuming...going out...but at the same time i decided to do my best for this class's cheering comp..it's the last yr going cheering comp together...but im again challenege with another stuff...so i'll just have to go along their wish...at least it's better than pissing them off...

haiss...care and share...can we really do that?...hahax...

look at thing optimistically when i have financial problem now?!...zZz...even my da ge cant help me now...

cya ppl...

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Is tolerance the word?...should i tolerate any criticism from my friends and ppl around me to avoid conflicts?...in order not be be talked bad behind my back?...just because i thinks that im right and ppl thinks that im wrong...should i argue back or just agree with them in order not to make it worse?...maybe i shld just tolerate this one person...otherwise a conflict with her might just be so disastrous?...

tml is history and again...nth seems to be able to get into my head...my head just go dizzy whenever i look at that one big chunk of wordings in the textbook...

Just so irritating...

Cheering competition...hand in cheers by thurs and where's our cheers?...definitely still in that big big sea of words for us to pick them out...As a councillor...i am so the responsible for things...when they fail...im so the responsible for its failure...

Staying optimistic is sure one way to get rid of sadness for a short term...can i really handle everything with a smile?...

Everyone just forgets...they cant/wont remember wad i said...cuz im such a crazy fellow in their heart and im surely talking nonsense whenever i opens my mouth...i must be joking with things...

Yepx...sms...when i call...it will be so scary...just have nth to say...

this blog is visited by all those ppl...but just those that i hope will see my post would never ever come by to read it...maybe once in a million and i havent posted a million times?

sometimes...just tell myself...it's all fated like this...if i really were to be so close with him...i would have been born 3 years earlier and not be so clever and be in a NA class...it's just all fated...no more...hahax...

cya ppl...

Monday, May 08, 2006

ok...i nid a break...after my exam...but first...i nidda list down everything i nidda look into...Care and Share...can it really be done?...hmm...cheering comp...i dunnoe how issit to be done when ideas are generated and is being put there to wait for ppl to make it come true...hmm...class t shirt...hais...if we dun get into finals...i will be so the dissappointed...2 yrs...1st yr thinking abtit...2nd yr tryin to make it as soon as possible but...nvm...all these isnt anyone else's fault...if i do them myself...at least it will be my fault...but i didnt do them...so it's my fault...wad have i done as one of the class councillors...i dunnoe...
tml is science exam le and wad i noe abt science is like so little that it isnt enough to fufil wad the teachers expect us to noe...history is 3 days from now and i havent started a single thing...im sort of gone for it...after 24 may...would i be able to laugh happily and enjoy myself?...or tied down t othe fact that i didnt do well in my examinations cuz of my laziness and playfulness...ok..cya ppl...

Sunday, May 07, 2006

You Are Italian Food

Comforting yet overwhelming. People love you, but sometimes you're just too much.

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice. You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

ok...todae was..."fun"?...oso dunnoe is fun or not fun lahz...it's suppose to be fun?...had some fun?...had some not fun?...hahax...nvm...ok...wasted one whole day...thought could study a bit...but after the swim...someone have to go buy wallet and i wasted all my time...zZz...ok...after the swim...then when i eat finish...i started perspiring profusely...even when i go to the MRT station...or even in the MRT...then at shopping centre oso...zZz...now im not...hahax...ok...4 more papers...3 more subjects...before i can relax let down all my worries and stuffs and destress all the stress i accumulated over these...dunnoe how many months...
ok...cya ppl..

Friday, May 05, 2006

It's so difficult or even impossible to be perfect!...Yes...solve attitude problems or any other problems slowly...one by one...but why do it appear again when u are trying to solve another one...
Looks...yes...it's always one of the factors...for whatever reasons...
Recently...that night...Beng Kui le...for some reasons...for some factors...i cant understand my friends...sometimes...care so much...sometimes...cold and weird...i dun dare to tell them...it will be like a 180degrees turn...the next moment...everything become so the perfect...because i tell them wad happened...but i dun wan this...i rather they continue be like this than to do some changes for the sake of suiting someone...just now after school...i just love that moment...sitting by the class window...myself...looking at those students walking out of the school...everyone left le...i just sat there to watch them go...it's just life...yes...every happie moment u have...u'll oso have sad moments...i just feel so happie/fortunate sometimes...there's ppl caring for me even when i dun feel sad or wad...
there's so many many mistakes in life...but i believe...having a da ge like him is not a mistake...being in the band is not a mistake...having some friends of mine now is not a mistake...just hope i can be optimistic more bahz...i dun like ppl caring for me when i feel sad or depressed...i hope to have ppl who care for me even when im not sad or depressed...simple actions can make my day...and i can be so happie for one whole day just becuz of that...like...giving me a cookie in the morning when im so tired to have breakfast at home...walking with me to somewhr near my house before making a big round home...giving me water when i forgot to bring my water bottle...just a small small act of initiative and care...without me trying so hard to hint ppl...without me trying so hard to bear with it and wait...
im someone who will get very cross with ppl who break their promise when ppl reminded them for a few times...maybe that's the reason for ppl to not promise me things easily...and hence i can remember who promised me wad...hahax...maybe i'll just dun care that person le...
i can easily be happie for one whole day and oso easily be angry for one whole day...but i would be carried away more by happiness when that act of someone really comes at the right time...ok...cya ppl...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

ok...recently i dunnoe why...but tears keep coming out...i keep telling myself dun...but i just cant control it...probably this is not becuz of wad happens now but becuz of the past...hais...zZz...
one very obvious thing now is that...yes...im just drifting away...no more close like before...but i dunnoe why but i still feel fine...just that now when speak to them...it just sounds so weird...yes...anti-social...is that the perfect word to describe me now?...no one understands me...i really hope one day he will stop asking...you ok anot?...ok i dunnoe wad else to say but tml is the chinese paper...cya ppl...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

hahax...bored so went play this again...

You Are 52% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

Monday, May 01, 2006

hahax...back to post...high spirit sia...so happie...although starting of the day not happie...after that went to causeway then bugis then plaza sing...hahax...looking for something...fun sia...LOL...hmm...exams sia...haiss...cya ppl...