Tuesday, December 29, 2009

The cycle of happiness following sadness and sadness following happiness.

Why does it always seem like there're a lot of things hidden under you. But I know I have no reason to want to know everything. ARGH. who actually understands this kind of contradiction. Cannot move forward, yet you don't want to move back either.

Anyway, days of seeing people getting married somehow makes me want to get married too.. =.=

Okay. Feeling very very very what what what now. BYE

Thursday, December 24, 2009

A big big thanks to this friend. For not finding it a hassle to help me with some things. For helping me find a work. For going out with me although you're busy. For lots of things.

A week not being disturbed by band. Happiness indeed.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

WHAT DO YOU TAKE US FOR? A GROUP OF SLAVES OR A GROUP OR LEADERS?

And why do I have to prove myself through such things? OR do you people really want to display to the most excellent bit that QMs really do shits?

And you. I really hate it whenever it comes to band. Ever since band came into scene, I cannot communicate with you anymore. From a friend whom I appreciated here to a leader whom I really cannot accept at times. I really feel that you are the one who makes it even more and more sure for everyone to say QMs do shit.
YES you're a girl. But can't you just give a hand in some things? EXPECT US TO STEP UP TO THE SAME LVL AS YOU PEOPLE? but do you really think people care anything of QMs? NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO.
NO ONE CARES A SHIT. we do our job, they are happy.

It's not just one day or one occassion but ALMOST EVERYDAY that I'm hating all this because of the shit work I have to do. I just feel like getting out of this mess at times. I have put in all my time and effort into work which I think are important. but that does not means that every other thing can also be piled up since there is already one pile here!

Maybe this is also why people keep quitting. INDEED YOU ARE SUCCESSFUL. BAND HAS VERY GOOD REPUTATION OUT THERE NOW. but are your members truly happy over these. So when the J1s come in, do we tell them that they must be ready to be UNABLE to take part in some things in college like being a OGL? do we tell them that they are expected to put everything of theirs, EVEN THEIR FRIENDS, aside for this cca?!?!?

You are really not getting a group of leaders out from this, you are getting a group of people who will be so resistive to scoldings.

And for you. I have lost you as a friend. We are just two people in band who can talk.

Seriously, I never expect myself to have to deliver something which is very important to someone and sacrifice the time I have with a friend whom I already planned to meet.

If only I have the courage to stand up and tell the conductor. But I don't have that...

Really helpless.. If only my that friend can support me.