Thursday, June 29, 2006

I am very sure i will definitely miss my 4 sec 4s seniors after they leave...aww...
First of all...the one who always help me-yong zhi..hais..although he will still be around next yr...but he will still dun have to come so oftenly...
next...ohguanri...helped me quite sometimes too...
next up...gladys heng...funnie gurl...together with thamjiemin...always make me laugh...really happie to have such seniors...
last in our section...zeyi..although not good to us but we always need a bad guy to show how good others is and i think we've learnt quite somethings from him...
hmm...somemore seniors...nadilah...thanks a lot to her...
actually there's much much much more seniors who are good...list down one by one?...im afraid i'll miss out some...so better not...actually i should say...i think all the seniors are very good...just that im not close to some of them bahz...

lastly...THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH!! this is only one short post la...maybe some other days i'll post again bahz...
nidda go sleep le...so tired after these days...cya ppl...

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

stop it la zheng wei..for all u know now...there's nobody in this world that's good to you..at least not the close ones...

until i experience it for myself one day...i will choose to believe that things are happie...zZz...

i dunnoe why but maybe it's because i always make the first move to be good to people that's why they are good to me or issit they are good to me becuz they want to be good to me...zZz...

nvm all this...i will know everything when i experience it..

Thursday, June 22, 2006

STUPID BICYCLE SHOP!! zZz...close so early...didnt get to ride to the dark dark end...=.=...ya ya this and ya ya that...hahax...okie...my post is ending le..

cya ppl..

Monday, June 19, 2006

zZz...

Issit that things must be lost before they know how to cherish it? I am only 14years old mind u! why should i put myself in such a stressful situation...argh...thinking of disappearing would make a difference...will it or not...i dun feel like caring so much le...dun cherish then dun cherish! i dunnoe whether i can dun give it a damn or not and i think i cannot...but i dun feel like it...it's making me sink...

no happie things happen except that i bought new socks, new slipper and jun yang's album bahz...all this cant be compared to just one small small other thing...just look at my wishlist...i didnt wish for all this...zZzz...

after looking through jun yang's album...i saw this msg of jun yang dedicated to his friend LJJ...it's like they can be great friends for so many years...both put in effort de?...i oso dunoe but when i recalled how he said sorrie into the television saying sorrie wayne and blah blah...it's like...hahax...zZz...

felt much better when i try to divert my attention to other things though...todae could not concentrate much...im feeling tired and this few matters are just bothering me...zZz...how can i ever change my mindset of not thinking so much...zZz...

tml going watch x men...afetr waiting for sooo long...eventually still didnt get to watch with who im suppose to watch in the first place but at least got them to watch with me which i think is quite lucky though cos at least after waiting for so long there's something...zZz...

this is one hopeless post and oso a post filled with emptiness...

cya ppl...

Sunday, June 18, 2006

back to post after so many days...

is it really true that ppl can be not suitable to a certain thing or hobby? I really really dun think so... it's like from starting u've started off with let's say music lahz...that means after a certain period...u cannot go for any sports or things liddat? which means u are NOT suitable for this and that and u are condemn from it and u shall be stuck and restricted in this small small world... and from another point view...u started off with sports and later on u cannot go for music and such cos u are seen to be as a sportsman or something liddat...

isn't it that u have learnt that thing in the starting that u can be seen as that? why do ppl say u are not suitable for another thing becos of it and u shall be condemn and restricted and not allowed to be in that le..it's like u cannot learn anything else from now on...u can only continue learning and learning the same thing...

Am i really thinking too much for sometimes? do i have the need to think through this and that? am i going crazy from thinking so much? how can i find back wad i really am? i seems to be getting so the truly FAKE alrdy...i dun wan it at all..

yes indeed...without this or that...i felt so slowly that im growing fader and fader..one day i might just disappear...

hais...i may say it's alright when i mean it but i may oso say it when i dun mean it...i dunnoe when can i mean it or not..i dunneo whether i should or not...i should but i dun wan...so i will just admit everything...that would be the best...

thanks for this and that...happy or sad...

that's all le...nites...cya ppl...

Thursday, June 08, 2006

today went to the band outing...was quite fun...

on our trip there...i dunnoe why but i am so irritating and hyper active...zZz...then eventually piss ppl off...then reach there l0rhx...go rent bicycle first....then until 2+ go eat...3+ rest roller blade then 4+ pack up and go off...

then went back school and immediately sianx off...then after that play cards...then can eat le eat until very xinku cuz not that hungry that time...then after that went to walk around the school...those dark dark places l0rhx..zZz...then went play cards...or rather watch ppl play cards...then after that clean up and clean up then nothing to do le just sit there...so bored yet dun feel like going home yet...then after that go bbq there then after that help to clean up everything then go home le...

this is how i spent my day today... had fun which lasted for that few minutes...

this is one of those very very very few days...

cya ppl...

Saturday, June 03, 2006

ok...expecting stuffs from ppl is one crapx and im the largest among these...

i believed in my close friends too much...why should i expect them to fulfil it...NO WAY...most likely...

i have nth much to type but i have lots of things in mind...i cant express it like wad i normally would try to do...but...
hais...i just fill like breaking a piece of glass like wad happened...

BYE!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

today played french horn...quite nice but quite difficult...havent adapt...gonna practise bahz...

life is so full of disappointment and happiness and lots more other feelings which make us feel so much...sometimes u just experience so much disappointment or sadness at a point of time that u are sooo feel like dying...while some other point of time all the happiness come at once which make u so grateful towards those...

why am i filled with so much emotion?...if im not filled with these...i might even have a better life of plain stuffs...which might be better...anger is one emotion that i dun wanna have and dun wanna use it cuz when i use it...it would probably make some ppl sink into that pool of angerness too...

i oso realise i cannot have very close friends and i wont be a good friend cuz i expect a lot from my close friends which i will try to give but not neccessarily achieve that...i rather not have close friends like this cuz eventually friends wil lbe gone together with the change of class or change of school or change of some other stuffs...

ok...cya ppl...i dun feel like continuing...but i'll be fine...hahax..